So, lately I've been so busy that I've forgotten who I am. I've gotten sucked back into my old ways. I've felt broken and hurt. I've let Jesus out of my life. And, to be quite honest, I'm semi-OK with it. Mostly because I don't want to climb out of where I am. I don't want to go through the pain and the brokenness in my life. I don't want to work through it. However, last night I put on a playlist on iTunes that I have labeled, "the ugh list." That's the playlist I listen to when I don't really have a mood. The song, "Take Everything" by Seventh Day Slumber came on. The words on the picture are the words to the chorus. I made this picture tonight because for one, I'm bored because I'm just taking a break and two, because I wanted some sort of reminder of these lyrics. I'm going to set this picture as my background. I took the background picture during the fall. I blurred the entire thing for effect, but also to show that life can get blurry. Our relationship with Christ can get blurry and we don't really know what we're looking at. It's where I am right now. The chorus ends with, "Jesus, take everything." Instead of working through all of my hurt, Jesus can just take it all. I just need to give in and let Him. I don't know when that will be or how long it will take, but it will happen…I hope.
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